Overload . I don’t know  about anyone else, but at times I get too busy, or stress level gets too high, too many demands on my life, or just too much noise. Ninety percent of my overload is due to  too much noise. I was raised pretty much a city boy. Fortunately I was able to spend most of my summers with my grandparents. They had a home a ways out in the country. I can’t really say for sure. Maybe  five or six acres. Enough land for the house, shed,chicken coop, pig pen, large garden with fruit trees, and how can I forget the outhouse. As a small boy it was moment by moment adventure. What fun…. Just thinking about it is relaxing me.

Absolutely no noise. Food was fresh every day. Chickens, eggs, fresh fruit and vegetables, and an abundance of canned foods in the root cellar. I’m here to tell you how awesome it was to eat a home cooked meal on a wood stove. OMG my mouth waters just thinking about it.

Okay what was I talking about?  Overload. Talking about  the positive things instead of the BS and listening to noise is helping me feel better. Actually I feel like a ton of bricks have been lifted off me. Wow very cool!😎

I think I am ready to go out and face my day. We shall see how tall I stand in a few hours!!!! nick

Well, how many more days?

I found this post . It got lost in the shuffle. A little late but it may have a few relevant points

How many more days?   Before it is official?  I know we are already waist deep in shit and we are not even official. Yes, I did use the word WE and not he or them. Why you ask? Plain and simple, WE the people have voted. Very soon Mr. Trump will become President Trump. Hold on now the buck doesn’t stop there.

Let us be reminded the president is an elected official to preside over the executive branch of our government.  I can’t  deny that the position of President isn’t the most powerful and influential position in our government.  The position isn’t to be taken lightly. It is a grave responsibility to first and foremost protect us, our country,and  unhold our Constitution.

To guarantee a balance of power the founding fathers made provisions in the Constitution. Two other branches were added to the government. With all three branches, executive, legislative, and judicial established and working properly there should be the checks and balances to maintain the balance of  power.

I started this post a few days ago agonizing as to what I wanted to say..  Well , I am going to shift gears.  It’s not really off topic.. In fact what I’ve been saying with words  these beautiful people are doing with deeds.

I have read a few news feeds over the past few days. And there are people all over the country. Shit all over the world in massive demonstrations. We are not just talking hundreds here but hundreds of thousands.  I am totally excited to see this happening. I do stand corrected  and humbled they have taken words to the next level to action. God bless them  and protect them  i just know good will come from this. nick

I overstay my welcome.

Here I go again trying to fit where I don’t fit, being what I don’t want to be, and in general overstaying my welcome. I don’t know if anyone else can relate or even knows what I am talking about. It is being some place thinking I’m needed. A place that I think I are making a difference. But at the same time I feel out of place, on a different page.

I try convincing myself that I can do this. I’m not a quitter and don’t want to give up. So I stick with it past that grace period where I’m tolerated. Mistaking being used for usefulness. Whatever I do meets opposition. Whether I am right or wrong they choose the opposite path.

I could go on and on in this general tone and avoid being specific. I can fictionalize it all I want, but that doesn’t change the fact that it really exists. And I need to draw  some conclusions, acting on them. To put it plainly. I have overstayed my welcome. I don’t fit in. I am not on the same page. It is time for me to leave.

What then? It is easy to confess it here on paper, but to act. Man this is one of the hardest things for me to do. I avoid confrontation.  What then do I open myself up to whatever comes along? No decision is a decision.  Maybe it is time I got some balls about me and jump off this runaway train leading nowhere. At least for me it’s taking me nowhere as well as taking further and further from my true path.

Bottom line It is time, if not past time to move on. Do I feel any better writing this post. Yes and no. I wouldn’t feel totally right till I deal with it.

Resistance within Resistance without

Resistance within

Resistance without

Making me weak

Making me doubt

How do I fight

What is out of sight

What must I learn

Before I can move on

The struggle is real

It would

If it could

Consume my will

If I stand still

Movement, a weapon

A way to fight it

Walk forward

Don’t look back

Getting stronger

With every step

Set your sight

On what is right

Focus on the light

Avoid the night

Have I Lost My Focus?

Have I Lost My Focus?

Have I lost my focus? What do I mean by that? Thinking back to my blogging beginnings, I had a strong conviction to share my feelings . Speaking as loud as I can against war ,our warring worlds mindset, war as the first and only mean to an end.

I am convinced that war only leads to more war. And that means only leads to one end. The end of human life on planet Earth!

My focus must clearly be to WAGE PEACE and not war!   Peace there is no compromise here. Not I win and you loss or you win and I loss. But we both win as we come together at a round table. The circle has no beginning and the circle has no ending . The circle is eternal, unbreakable, complete. We must realize we are one people, one race,the human race, and one chance, Peace, peace and only peace. We must not compromise ….

Have I lost my focus? Yes and no. Yes from the standpoint that I have not been vocal about my heart convictions. No from the standpoint that I still embrace those convictions. Yes I have allowed other issues to crowd out expressing my thoughts on peace.

In conclusion I am setting my sight back on peace. The need for active dialogue for peace is of utmost importance. One must only look at the world, our own country, and the convictions of our own hearts to realize peace is the only answer to our world’s survival.

Peace is not an easy task. It takes a conscience effort. May I say a continuous conscience effort to wage peace.

To wage war is an easy out. If someone disagrees with you, you use all your physical strengths to crush them into submission. May I note if their physical strengths outweighs your the opposite result occurs. Problem? Yes big problem. The winner,loser show is short lived. Sooner or later someone stronger comes along to challenge that win and will defeat you. The winner,loser cycle goes on and on. Never ending. Growing in intensity until it destroys everything and everyone. What has been accomplished? Total destruction. Done.

What then is the answer? Peace we must wage PEACE. Peace is a win, win situation. I know. It takes a conscience effort to wage peace. To sit down face to face, eye to eye, mouth to mouth, and listen what the other one has to say. That goes both ways. Let me repeat that. Peace begins when both side choose to listen to each other. 

I can’t make it more clear waging peace is hard work. It takes all that you are to make it work. Anyone can build a bomb, but it takes real strength to admit you are wrong or if you are right to forgive the one who wronged you.

It is easy to respect the respectable ,but hard to respect the unrespectable. It is easy to live about one that agree with you,but not so easy with ones who disagree.

Maybe all this is hard to get your mind wrapped around. I can understand that. Since the beginning of the human race we have been fed that the strong will survive . Limiting their strengths to physical attributes. Bigger and badder bombs. And more of them. You get hit you hit back. It doesn’t end. You take from one someone comes along and takes from you.

I think I have illustrated my point. Maybe more so and for that I apologize. It is just hard for me to sit back and watch what is happening and not say something. Thank you for listening….nick